I began meditating in 1972 and although it made me feel better, I struggled to establish a consistent meditation practice. Each year my new year’s resolutions included “Meditate!” in the top three (vying with lose weight and exercise for #1).
During the 80’s and 90’s as I juggled career, family, and eventually became a stay-at-home-mom to our four kids, I continued to study different techniques but I just didn’t resonate with the woo-woo, chakra balancing, aura seeing, material that was dominating the field.
Nor did I want to be identified as a Buddhist or a Yogi or an anything. I just wanted to feel less angry, and frustrated. My vision of who I wanted to be and what I was actually doing and saying were very different.
So, I continued looking for answers. I studied Christianity, Buddhism, Yoga, and Judaism, Native American... the list goes on. This search lead to me helping to found a non-profit dedicated to exploring and learning about the different paths to transformation. (We closed it doors in May of 2012 after seven years of great exploration and learning.)
In 1997 I found a technique that I actually practiced regularly and it began to transform me and my relationships. A few years later I found a living teacher of that technique who simply said, “Try this. If it works, use it. If it doesn’t, don’t.”
Someone not trying to indoctrinate me but encouraging me to find what worked for me?
And this is the tradition of teaching I try to carry on.
When you led us through each of our senses, when we got to taste, I had the sudden impression of the word "sorrow”. Sorrow I could taste… it made sense. I was steeping in sorrow of the past (mistakes) and dread of the future (empty nest) instead of just living joyously in the present.
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